Days of My Life

Ehsan Hamidi

Mashhad, Iran

 

Days of my life have passed.
You have to part from friends and relatives,
from all things and all people.
I cannot describe my situation on those days.
In the town where I grew up
I took leave of my friends
and put everything in God’s hand.
At the last moment
I embraced my best friend.
At that moment we were both
close to bursting into tears.
And we had to part
and we did not know when
and on what day we would meet again.

When we left our house
travelling towards Teheran,
I took leave
of the whole town,
of the streets,
of the trees.
And I tried
to store everything in my memory
and never to forget.

 

Ehsan Hamidi (18)

was born in Mazar-e-Sharif, Afghanistan. He grew up in Mashhad, in north-eastern Iran, where his family took refuge from the war in Afghanistan. Due to religious and ethnic discrimination against Afghans living in Iran, in 2015 the family decided to go to Germany. Today Ehsan lives in Halle in Sachsen-Anhalt.

Search for the Dream

Ehsan Hamidi

Mashhad, Iran

 

Night again,
after midnight again,
and I am still awake again,
still awake and searching for rest.
The rest for which I have suffered so much.

Sometimes I think
I have got accustomed to emigration, to impermanence.
But what does all the melancholy then mean?
Perhaps my childish thoughts
when I left my homeland
were not aware of the meaning of emigration.
Of its sadnesses.
But now I know well
what it means
to be far from things
to which you have been accustomed for years.

Always looking
for a heart-warming justification
for enduring difficulties.
Always looking for the dream
that I followed.
The dream
for whose fulfilment many have taken a very difficult path.
But only when they arrive here
do they realise what misfortune they have found.
And that all the things
that they expected
were no more than a dream.

They journey to a new country,
dreaming of happiness.
But here there is nothing called happiness.
Here there is impermanence.
Problems multiply
and there is no way back.
Here.
In the place
for which you let go of everything that belonged to you.
In the place
worse than the one that you came from.
In the place
where everyone looks at you with the eye of contempt.

 

Ehsan Hamidi (18)

was born in Mazar-e-Sharif, Afghanistan. He grew up in Mashhad, in north-eastern Iran, where his family took refuge from the war in Afghanistan. Due to religious and ethnic discrimination against Afghans living in Iran, in 2015 the family decided to go to Germany. Today Ehsan lives in Halle in Sachsen-Anhalt.