AfghanistanMuska KarimiPoems

With Fear in my Heart

Muska Karimi

Kabul, Afghanistan

 

On the day I came to Germany, no one helped me
I did not know whom I could have asked for help
I did not know where I could have gone
The security personnel at the immigration ministry did not answer my questions right
It was a sunny, warm day
Without water, without food, without money
Alone, unaccompanied

Outside the entrance I met a boy
He had been here for four years at that time
I asked him how to draw attention to myself in this country
He answered: I don’t know

They took me to LaGeSo in Turmstrasse
I was suddenly standing there
In the middle of this room
Without a door, without a wall
A sports hall
I was allocated a bed in the middle of this hall
I was the only girl, there, in the middle of this room
Alone

Night fell
I felt lonely and was terribly afraid
That someone would come too close
That night I only slept two hours
The strain kept me from sleeping

The following day
My body was so exhausted
So indescribably exhausted
That I could not walk a step
I desperately considered the question
Where should I go now?
Great pain in my heart
Great pain in my body
So much fear in my heart

 

Muska Karimi (26)

fled to Germany alone in 2016 because of difficulties with the Afghan government. In 2017 her application for asylum was accepted. She has learned German at the Humboldt University and taken several modules of the HU for Refugees programme. Her younger sister is now in Berlin and they live together in a flat-share.